Day 12, Sunday: What do you miss? (a person, a thing, a place, a time of your life...) I kind of just want to skip over Day 11 and 12. Mostly, yesterday I was out and about with my husband all day and didn't have time to post, and well today.. I have something weighing heavy on my heart. I guess, what is on my heart has a little to do with the topic as well. What do I miss? I miss... ugh, here we go, I am just going to say it, I miss my baby. Yes, MY baby. I don't care how many weeks it was, I was still am attached. Maybe, I need to get over it. Today is the day where people celebrate their mom's, and get to celebrate being a mom. I feel so selfish because all I can think about is, if I hadn't of lost "her",(I really felt like it was a her, because I had this crazy dream about her) I'd be celebrating.. I'd be happy today. I want to not be selfish... I want to just be over it, and not want to cry when I look up at the stars at night. Another crazy dream my friend had. She is my star, "that was too bright for this world", and I miss her so much. Especially today. Does it still count? Is it still mother's day for me? Am I still a mother?.. I know they say time heals all, but I've obviously not had enough time yet.
how can you NOT miss your baby who was once part of you? i'm so sorry you're going through this :(
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