He has faith in you

There are many things I would like to write about right now. Worries, fears, excitements. I am limited  though, and makes me feel strangely disconnected.

How can I dream of something for so long, and when I finally have the opportunity for it to happen, I feel like running for the hills? I feel such responsibility shouldn't be given to me. That I do not deserve such an award from The Lord.

Why must I have such a low image of myself? That I don't deserve anything truly good or pure? My marriage alone, baffles me. That I could be part of such an amazing symbolism of Jesus and the church.

I hate feeling like this. I hate feeling like this, but knowing that He is my Heavenly Father that wants only good for me. He would never give me anything that He didn't believe I couldn't do.

I'm sorry I haven't written in awhile, and the first post I post is full of fear and worry. Don't mistake those emotions for sadness though. I've been going through a lot more spiritual growth, and sometimes you just need a break from everything else.

I'll end this with a quote I once read. "You have faith in God, but you forget that He also has faith in you." Not sure who wrote it, but I refer back to that a lot.